Suerte

[Note.]

Do you know just what an amazing day i had today? There were so many wonderful moments; side-cracking, tummy-aching laughs, and i hold on to these memories for their keepsake value, but they slip past my fingers like cool grains of sand on the beach.

This, my friends, is what i call kismet. Everything happens for a reason. On March 11 when results came out, i cried from noon till night before i had an epiphany and allowed myself to let go. I kept thinking why didn't i study harder. I kept thinking if only i had done things differently, everything would be so much different. Only i didn't really mean "different", i meant "better". But it isn't really better, is it?

I was thinking about this a lot earlier, and as a result i now have this warm, contented feeling playing about the pits of my tummy. IF i had gotten even one more A in SPM, i wouldn't be here now. At all. Thinking about all these makes me realize just how precious this moment is.

Are you aware of that?

Are you aware of how special YOUR moment is?

So listen. IF i had gotten one more A, i would be in Inti Subang Jaya right now, no doubt about that. (cause, FYI, they offer 100% waivers for students with 10A's). I would've joined in the March intake, therefore foregoing national service and therefore foregoing the opportunity to meet any of them awesome sayangs of mine -- and also the ultimate homesickness-experience.

Now, i'm not saying that this TARC experience is completely better than whatever experience that i would've gotten at Inti. I mean, who knows, right? I'm sure i would've met plenty of awesome people there as well. I'm sure i would've loved it there, being in SS15 and smack in the middle of it all. There could probably have been a Mr. Right-Now as well. But seriously, who knows? What i DO know is this:--

1. I'm in TARC right now.
2. I have been such an amazing experience.
3. I have met amazing people.
4. I'm having so much fun it's insane.

So yeah, being at Inti would mean that i wouldn't be given the opportunity to do what i'm doing now -- which has been amazing. Making. So. Many. Friends!!! *spazzing with joy*

Okay, now let's backtrack a bit. If i had gotten one more A, Yernny wouldn't be at TARC either. (most likely lah, who's to say for sure, right?)

If i had gotten one more A, i wouldn't be as close to Yernny and Suze as i am right now. Of course, if i went to Inti i'd have made new friends = expanding network = good stuff, but seriously, what we have now is pretty amazing, and pretty much trumps that as well.

If i had gotten one more A, i wouldn't have met Hwee Yee. Or Thad. Or Shaun. Or Zarrah. Or Ama. Or any of my classmates. Neither would i be on talking terms with Han Jon because let's face it, we only started talking when i ran into him during orientation week.

If i had gotten one more A, i wouldn't have had the opportunity to do what i'm doing right now, which i have to admit, i'm enjoying a LOT, stressful as it is.

If i had gotten one more A, i wouldn't have had the same utterly incredible day that i had today. I think about the things we said or how LAME we were being and i just can't help cracking up. I had so much fun today!

Today was an amazing day, you know that? Do you know how close we were to not having this day today? Do you see now how everything fell into place like that?

And i cried so hard on March 11 my eyes were swollen for a week. If i had known how things were gonna be like back then, i'd probably be laughing my ass off.