There was this jumpy feeling in me the other day, and i didn't get what that feeling was, except that it made me feel nice. It felt like everything -- from the molecules that constitute me as a whole, right down to my soul -- was tingling. I felt like jumping or dancing or singing.

I felt alive!

I still do, but it's fading away. Hey, nothing lasts right? But it was soo good, for a while. It still is, actually, but i find myself being forced to tone it down for it gets difficult to focus on the books while you feel like you're on top of the world.

(and i'm not even on drugs! hey, see, this could be like an anti-drugs campaign!)

(...or not)


I have so many things i want to do. So many things i want to be. I wanna be a writer, an activist, a top student, a baker, a socialite, etc. And the best part for me is that i know that i can pursue all these. I am so grateful that i have the opportunity to be able to achieve even a few of the things i have in my mind.

Also, i totally love the Martin Luther King quote i posted in the previous post. I have a thing for quotes, especially one that you get, through and through. I know that if i put all my focus into all these things simultaneously it'll all probably come out like shit and i'll likely become a mediocre everything instead. But that's where the challenge comes from! It'll be fun to see if i have it in me to not only achieve everything i have in mind, but also achieve it well.

Your turn! What do you want to do/be today?

Love,
J

I've been feeling a little down since last night, suddenly overcome with a rush of regret. This isn't going to sound very positive of me, but i've been thinking, and thinking --

Our SPM starts in a little more than 3 weeks, and our trial exams results are out. I must admit that i did not dare to hope for straight A's, and the results i have gotten are at par with my expectations, but still.

So i got 7 A's, 3 B's, and -- i want to die as i say this -- 1 C. Now, people have been telling me that it's good enough, but lately i've been having just a little too many conversations with myself and no, it's just not good enough.

It's not good enough for the dreams and plans that i have.

Yes, i know that life's not all about the A's, and that the actual SPM results are more important, and that i can still do better for SPM, and that yes i will do better for SPM, but this isn't just all about that.

Time and time again, i have gotten less than satisfactory results, and i have told myself, it's okay you'll just try harder from now on and you'll get kickin' results in the next exam. I told myself again and again, that it is my actions that decide what i get, it is how much effort i put into things, and if i want a full 11 A result sheet, i can get it.

Yet time and time again, i find that i can still procrastinate. And then after all that procrastination i find myself in a time-poverty (a catchy phrase, coined by Tien Yen), and i study and study but it's still not enough.

No, i'm not being emo, but i am very much daunted by my own actions. What makes me want to kick myself the most is the fact that i know that i did not do my best. I could be having an 11 A result sheet in my hands right now, but i don't.

So maybe it's time to rethink my approach. All along i've been telling myself that i can do it, if i want to. But when will i want to? And when will it be enough, to make me happy?

Also, i find that i have been rather distracted this year. It pains me to say that what my parents have been telling me in such i-told-you-so tones are true. So here it is. 3 weeks we have left, and i shall procrastinate no more. If all we have is right now, then i will give my all.

I will bounce back. And this time i'm going to be focused. For three weeks, anyway. Hare-brained as i am, i can never stay focused for long. It was today amidst all my introspection, i remembered something i heard on TV. It was Martin Luther King III who spoke this, and it was at Michael Jackson's memorial where he spoke this.

My father once said that in life one must discover what their calling is and when they do they must do their jobs so well that the living, the dead and the unborn could do them no better. He constantly challenged us to become our best by stating that if you cannot be a pine on the top of the hill why not just be a shrub in the valley, but be the best little shrub on the side of the road. Be a bush if you cannot be a tree. If you cannot be the highway just be a trail. If you cannot be the sun, just be a star. For it isn’t by size that you win or you fail, you got to be the best at what you are.

The father that he speaks of is of course none other than Reverend King, civil rights activist, in case you should get confused.

So, that's enough of my ramblings. Without further ado, the flash mob!


Honestly, my favorite part is the part where they blow the whistle and we freeze. That's it, the Freeze for Earth, initiated by UM's UNESCO club students. We halt whatever we're doing and stay that way for 3 minutes. Super fun!


I also love the part when the flash dance starts, and the chant gets progressively louder as more people join in. Semangat woi!

I already blogged about this at Environmental Humanism, so i will not say much. Plus, I HAVE TO GO STUDY.

Last words :--
I love unity, which is what we experienced yesterday. Not just here in Malaysia, but across the globe. Yesterday was just full of awesome.


Cheers!

P.S : I encourage you to do what you think you should be doing right now. If you have dreams, then act on it! And i stress, never ever ever tell yourself things like, i'm not meant to do that, or no matter how hard i try i won't be able to do it. Why are you stopping yourself? If you find that you don't have something that you want, it is only because you are keeping yourself from having it. Your life is in your hands. Truly.

I am SO bored. I need to get out but the parents are getting rather touchy about that seeing as we only have a month left before the real shit begins.

(one month left!!! *runs around in circles*)

Okay anyway. Something is happening to this planet we're on (the one we call earth). It's called global warming, but of course you already knew that. So many people know it, but so few people are actually doing something about it.

I've known it for a long time. Seriously, the amount of pencemaran alam sekitar essays we have been made to write have definitely raised awareness in me, but i only started being involved recently. Peer influence, maybe?

So, it's time to cut that apathetic attitude! I'm writing this post now to invite YOU to take part in your community and DO something about this climate change that's all the rage nowadays.


Which brings me to 350.

Basically, 350 parts per mil. is the safe limit for CO2 in the atmosphere. That means at 350 ppm, there will be no melting ice poles, no bushfires, no droughts, no sinking of islands, etc.

Right now we're at approximately 390 ppm, hence the melting of ice poles, bushfires, droughts and sinking of islands.


350 is also this international organization that's out to curb this problem, and our very own Malaysian group of 350 activists have planned a flash mob for the 24th of this month.


We want to raise awareness. Think we won't be getting any attention? Think again -- the goal is to get 350 people to dance and sing together in public, and don't worry, it's not as silly as it sounds. They'll be teaching you the dance and song routine beforehand, so it'll be a whole load of fun as well.

Date : 24th Oct 2009
Time : 10.30am – 1.30pm
Location : To be advised to registered participants only
Activity : Dance Mob

This here is called going green, so wear green on that day! Even a plain green T will be awesome :)


If you're from Sungai Long/Mahkota Cheras and are interested in this, click HERE. We'll be getting a bus to send us there and back, so that's the transportation problem settled for you.

Anyone can come, including you, so clear your calendars and bring as many friends as you can (but register first!). This will be fun :) see you guys there!

You just gotta love bad connections on MSN. It's like you are both just screaming at each other AND being deaf to the other's voice at the same time.

Chee Yern says:
stupid.
Chee Yern says:
you know.
Chee Yern says:
youtube is stupid.
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
connection sucks
Chee Yern says:
cos right.
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
i just ranted like a shitload to you
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
you are obligated to respond
Chee Yern says:
i didn't sign in or anything also kan.
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
wtf didn't you respond???
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
I TOLD YOU ALL MY INNERMOST INSECURITIES
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
AND YOU TALK ABOUT YOUTUBE
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
WTF
Chee Yern says:
they got this section over there saying "recommended for you?
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
RESPOND
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
RESPOND TO ME
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
RESPOND TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Chee Yern says:
"recommended for you"
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
walao
Chee Yern says:
guess what it recommends.
Chee Yern says:
on the laptop and the computer.
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
and she continues talking about youtube
Chee Yern says:
stupid shit.
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
HAHAHAHA
●• Jin Rui [x] "on broadway, in soho" •● says:
i'm so copy pasting this

I just watched The Eye 10 with my brothers. First time i actually noticed this, but my brother squirms while watching horror movies. HAHAHA so cute okay!

So the movie's crap. It's amusing crap, but still crap nonetheless. Anyway, to neutralize the horror movie i turned on Across The Universe :) when i first watched this movie i didn't like it much, then it started to grow on me.

One of my favorite scenes : --

Gooood evening! :D I saw these a couple of months ago but couldn't be bothered to watch 'em. Then i stumbled upon them again and they're really funny. I love these cool ads and the meaning behind them. Who wouldn't, eh?



And my favorite! Pillow fights! This one made me literally LOL.



Another favorite.



Kaiser shat all over the floor again. This little Schnauzer may be cute, but his crap stinks to the heavens, no kidding. Usually we pick up the poo with toilet paper and throw it into the toilet bowl and then flush. Easy solution -- stink evaporates within minutes.


Then i realized how much water we waste. That's two flushes a day! And each flush is about 4 to 6 litres of water. That means each day we flush at least 8 litres of water a day, and 240 litres a month. That's enough to fill up a kiddy swimming pool!

And how many people in the world are dying of thirst right now ah?

So -- with some inspiration from a certain website -- i showered into a bucket and flushed his shit away with that.

Okay, don't give me that look.

:P

Have a nice day! Go hug and kiss a stranger. I dare you.

Hiya!

Yes, peaceeeeeeeeeeeeee. I stress on peace. Yesterday was Peace Day; yesterday was also an awesome day. About thirty of us embraced our country's public transport system and headed over to the Pyramid to make a statement. All Minyi's idea :)


So we took the train and made a big ruckus in the rather small compartment. Small, for the amount of Peace people and others. Everywhere we went, people stopped and stared :) whaddaya think, success or not?

We arrived and had our lunch with Carl's Jr. and his ginormous burgers. So humongous that even Melvin couldn't finish his. Imagine our shock. After a very satisfying lunch (and more noise made by us), everyone hit the skating rink.

I allow the pictures to do the talking.




A guy wrote on a forum somewhere that peace is a notion that is basically impossible. War is a necessity, he said. It is a natural phenomenon, a way for the earth to deal with the ever increasing population. "Bullshits like union, peace, friendship and similar slushes are nothing but the apotheosis of weakness."

I told him to have a little faith.

Peace begins within ourselves -- and sure, a world completely without war and murder and rape probably can never exist, but it doesn't hurt to try.


And tried, we did.

Hooowdy~!

Our trial exams are drawing to a quick close. Today we saw the last of our Biology Paper 3 -- only Math left for everyone! (And accounts and literature for me, but what the heck). What better way to celebrate than to "go yum cha" and wind up in the cinema instead?

But first -- our escapade!

We still had three school hours left after the exam, and we weren't about to spend those precious minutes listening to some talk. So the teachers were standing guard at the gates after a prior bunch of students made their great (illegal) escape.

So we waited.

And waited.

As it turns out, patience is indeed a virtue -- for some reason, the teachers left their post, and so we left the school, albeit quite unfashionably, if you can even call running out of the school with your schoolbag bouncing excitedly behind you "unfashionable".

(what do you think are the chances of us all being in deep shit when school reopens? maybe the teachers will have a good Raya celebration and be in a forgiving mood XD)


Returned home for a change of clothes. Then we were at Connie's house because she needed a change of clothes.

Alas. No key. Obviously, the break in comes next.


Then the break out -- without any goods in hand, unfortunately.


Decided on Jusco for our "yum cha" session, but only because it wasn't too close nor too far. Somehow, we wound up at the cinema ticketing counter and ran into a bunch of classmates, also fellow escapees.


Got our tickets, got our lunch, and fooled around.


We watched Where Got Ghost? -- Singaporean, horror, hokkien, and funny as hell. Imagine covering your eyes during the horror scenes but laughing at the same time. But apparently, the previous Jack Neo show was funnier (Money No Enough 2).

Well, the end of our trials = the closer the real exams are -- but i have a feeling none of us are gonna be studying tonight.

Be love ~